Major Life Updates

Hello Readers!

It has been well over a month and I have not written anything! I have run a few times, but there is much bigger news. We moved to Southern Alabama. But the trip… was INSANE. Insane good? insane bad? both.

this update will come in 2 maybe 3 parts because it is just so long. Let’s back it up to why we moved…. California is just too expensive, we wanted to be with more nature and in a smaller town. Things were too toxic where we were, with neighbors and such. It was time for a major change.

We started selling off our things, Jesse mostly- he sold the boat, the kayaks.. anything and everything. We kept the essentials and donated/threw away the rest. We purchased a 24 foot trailer, we did as much work as we could on the truck to make sure it was good and ready for a long 2100 mile road trip. I had vacation days saved up, we were going to do this and have fun! Oh, that is always the plan, isn’t it?

We planned to go from California> Flagstaff> Amarillo> Fort Worth> Lafayette>Daphne Alabama (home).

We watched the weather patterns religiously, and got nervous when a big tropical storm was rearing its head on the gulf.. .wondering what kind of damage would be done, would we be able to cross? Heat advisories were going off in Texas, rain and thunderstorms were on the radar for New Mexico and Texas. We were worried.

But, we had it all planned out, we knew our hours and mileage for each day, we had hotels set up, we had spare tires, we had brand new brakes, we had extra everything. But, of course something had to happen…

Day 1/ Monday: We left bright and early 5:30am. Packed up the truck with the last of our things and we were off to meet Jesse’s dad for breakfast. It started raining. We couldn’t make it to his house because the streets were too narrow. We parked on the side of the road and his dad picked us up. We stayed for a bit there and had breakfast and then were off by 8:30am. Things were pretty smooth, but once we got into Arizona winds were HIGH. These gusts had to be 50-60mph. My car was in the trailer as well, so we were carrying a very heavy load. We made it to our destination (finally), checked in and relaxed. It was a nice day and we were ready to keep on trekking.

Day 2/ Tuesday: We got up early and were ready for the day. With COVID we always wore a mask out and were cautious about health and safety. The hotel provided a little goody bag for breakfast. Off we went by 8am. Winds high. Semi trucks were zooming past us at incredible speeds. The mix of both were stressful on all of us. Each time a truck passed us it would send the trailer fish tailing. And then.. with about 140 miles left a semi truck passed us and the wind howled and we were fish tailing and almost crashed into a guard rail. We would have been dead. I am not exaggerating. Everything flashed before our eyes, I reached out and held on for dear life, Jesse strong armed the truck and did everything he could, planning to lay the trailer on the guard rail and save us from rolling. Everyone around us slowed down, watching as disaster was going to unfold. I do not talk about God much, in fact I was never religious, but over the past few months we have really turned to Him for advice to show us the way out of our mess and misery. He watched over us. He kept us upright. He even shielded Hendrix’s eyes to where he didn’t know this happened- as he watched his tablet and did not notice the horror unfolding. As we continued down the road, other truckers behind us checked in and went slow past us. We laughed it off thinking we just cheated death.

About 50 miles down the road we started to smell something, chemicals or something burning. It got stronger and stronger, we were in the middle of New Mexico and there were no (big) towns around us. We had passed by a small town called Santa Rosa 20 miles earlier. We pulled over. We sat, we talked to Jesse’s dad.. we tried to figure out what was wrong. Jesse normally goes to worse case scenarios and I thought “there is no way the rear axle is ruined… we are OK.” We got off the side of the road to the nearest town, 2 miles down the road, where Google Maps stated there was a gas station.

There was no gas station. It was a Ghost Town. Exit number 291, for Cuervo. There are only abandoned buildings. We will forever remember this turn off. We called AAA, turns out the insurance we purchased on the trailer doesn’t actually cover it! It is for RV’s only. We paid for nothing. Truck was covered, trailer not. Our whole life was in the trailer. What were we going to do? Amarillo was too far away, and the next closest town was Santa Rosa. We spoke with a small town mechanic and they gave us a deal to tow truck and trailer to their shop. The town has less than 2600 people in it. We arrived around 10:30 at night. Exhausted, hungry, sweaty and beaten down. We found a crappy little motel, realized we lost out on $ from our hotel we had reserved already in Amarillo and just bunkered down for the night.

The following day we were picked up (2 hours later than we were supposed to) and taken back to the mechanics. It was determined the rear axle was shattered. This was no easy fix. This would cost thousands. Stressed is an understatement, we didn’t have that kind of money to just toss around. Our vacation mode quickly ended. This was now survival. We couldn’t check back into another hotel for 4 hours. So, we sat out in the sun, and waited. Most stores near the mechanic were shut down. Economy had taken a hit, whether from Covid or just in general, we had no idea.

We returned to the hotel later that day broken down and worrying about what we would do. We had to research which parts we needed, what the exact specs were on the truck, and come to the realization that this part was very hard to come by. By 4pm I decided that we couldn’t do this alone. I started a GoFundMe page to raise money, I have never been one to ask for money. Never. It makes me sick to ask for something when I feel I should be making it on my own. But, I had to swallow my pride. I was also nervous that no one would help. Boy.. was I wrong.

Messages, texts, calls, and money came flying in (we did not hit our goal, but the blessing was we were able to use this money to help with the labor cost and hotel rooms). I was in tears the rest of the day, bewildered by the support from friends and family showing their love and concern for us. My family is a “car family” we know how to work on them, how to figure out the issue and get it done. The gear heads got to work, shooting out possible options, shooting down others.. trying to figure out how to get a used part for under $2k. Junk yards didn’t have any, ebay was a lost cause, we were looking at a bill from anywhere $2.5k-$5k from a dealership.. until we found a website (on Wednesday July 1st) that said they have a used part for $1400.

We call, we talk to the sales rep, it is only 4 hours away from us. They can send it on a semi truck and get it there the next day. We jumped for joy. We gave them our card information, we thought “this is great! we will only be a couple days past our agenda/itinerary). We had planned to be in Alabama on the 3rd, so we could catch fireworks in our new town. We were obviously going to miss that, but it was OK.

So, the part was supposed to arrive Friday morning. We decided to make the most of the extra day we had to stay and went on a day trip to Colorado. That was a bad decision. We nearly were run off the road (in my car this time) by road raging locals. Who then proceded to follow us for 20 miles and fight Jesse. We called the police, couldn’t get through.. contacted a different department, they weren’t there. Left a message, provided as much detail as possible, was able to film the driver and get their license plate number. We made it to a SEEDY Colorado Springs motel, where we witnessed, prostitution, drug selling, gun smuggling among more. We slept for all of 2.5 hours that night and left at 3am. We thought well, we will get to New Mexico and the part will be delivered shortly after that and we will be on our way.

Wrong again.

No part. No contact from company. Looked up company (which I suggest everyone looks up reviews on companies prior to making a big purchase) and found out they were a scam. We contacted over and over, they said “oh it’s on a truck, you’ll get it before 6pm”

Part never showed.

We were hung up on, we were yelled at by the company for demanding too much- we were just simply wanting what was promised to us in the time frame given to us. We waited, and waited… kept our family up to date and succumbed to the fact we were probably out of the money and never getting the part. But.. we are stubborn. And we do not give up. I called. Jesse called. We all called. We bombarded the company and demanded either the part to be in our possession that day or to give us our money back. Lie after lie was told to us- first it was shipped, then it will be shipped, then it won’t be shipped till next week. We eventually got them to say they would provide a refund if we wanted it. We recorded them. We wanted to give them one more day to see if it would still come. Maybe it was just lost in transit. They couldn’t contact the delivery truck driver, so we had an ounce of hope. Maybe… just maybe we weren’t getting screwed over.

The following day… still no part. We couldn’t wait any longer. We reached out to see what could be done. We decided that we needed to purchase it new. We also decided we couldn’t wait around and spend $60 a night on hotels. Saturday mid day we left New Mexico with some clothes and left our truck and trailer at the mechanics. That day we drove to Fort Worth Texas.

Part 1 FIN.

stay tuned for more.

Quarantine Week 10

Things are starting to open back up… restaurants. But, we hardly went to restaurants before lock down, so it doesn’t change much. Next week we go back to work, but with a twist… partial work week at home and the other part at work. How efficient will we be? WHO KNOWS!
Things stressing me out:
How Hendrix’s new school is going to function next year?
will he be able to MAKE new friends and PLAY??
will he be lonely again? (this has been a pretty lonely time for him)
Are we transitioning to only online schools?
How is this all going to work?!!?
Needless to say, I am stressing out on a lot. The one thing I want for my son is to make good friends and hopefully have play dates on the weekends with them. I want him to be able to play sports and interact with kids, I want masks to not be an issue (he doesn’t mind them, but they do get annoying)… I just wish things could go back to normal. He is going into kindergarten and my biggest worry is that he doesn’t get to connect with anyone.

Monday- holiday! Plan: RUN!
Actual: woke up with a hurt foot and then cramping calf. Running just wasn’t in the cards for me today. But I did do a lot of stretching and resting. In fact, I even go to listen to my audiobook, watch some shows and in general NOT BE BOTHERED by anyone for quite a while. I would call that a huge win. 🙂

Tuesday- Plan: RUN 3 miles.
Actual: RUN 3 miles. no walking.
Pretty stoked on that! And sub-10 min miles! woot woot! it was a little painful for the lungs, but I think it is more mental than anything.

Wednesday- Plan: Run 2 miles while H bicycles
Actual: Run 1.67 miles while H bicycles
. Almost to 2, but we were in a hot part of the day and he was TIRED. lol

Thursday- Plan: Run 4-5 miles. Core Work. Arm Work.
Actual: 4 mi run

Friday- Plan: REST
Actual: REST

Saturday- Plan: Run 9 miles
Actual: 1.15 miles running (H rode his bike) 4.5 miles biking

Sunday- Plan: REST
Actual: 15 miles!! These were the easiest, smoothest miles I have run in a long time. The only downside to this run was that I have a huge blister on my big toe. Other than that, this was GREAT!

Total mileage: 24.87 miles 😱

Quarantine- Week 9

The office is scheduled to reopen next week. Part time, so people will have schedules and certain days. Low and behold I am getting used to working from home and even though I sometimes miss going to the office (to get that alone time and not be bothered) I don’t want to go back.

Monday- Plan: Run ~1 mile with Hendrix. Promised him I would let him run with me.
Actual: Core work. And 1 kind of torturous mile with Hendrix. He focused too hard on running and therefore could only for like 15 seconds then walked.

Tuesday- Plan: Run 3 miles. Stretch. Core. Arms
Actual: Maybe a little too TMI, but I had to cut this 3 mile run short because I had to POOP! lol. Running does that, it jumbles your intestines and jiggles that stuff down. And then I couldn’t get back out the door, but the short run felt good.

Wednesday- Plan: Core. Legs. Bike 10 miles
Actual: 4 miles
on the bike while watching some HGTV. Slow and steady just trying to get something in.

Thursday- Plan: Run 3 miles
Actual:
1 mile bike. 4 mile run.

Friday- Plan: REST
Actual:

Saturday- Plan: Beach
Actual: 11.21 miles and BEACH!

Sunday- Plan: Run 12 miles
Actual: BEACH!

Total miles: ~17

Not too shabby! Are you guys getting ready to go back to work? San Diego entered phase 2 and let restaurants open back up, I have a feeling we might have to revert back to Phase 1 if we aren’t careful!! It’s like when you get in trouble with your parents as a teenager and then you just keep pushing the limit and you get grounded again. 😂😂

Quarantine Week 8

Quarantine is getting to us. As much as I want to put on a happy face for you, I won’t. We are getting bad news left and right and getting on each other’s nerves. We feel terrible for Hendrix who can’t socialize with any kids, we want to socialize ourselves, Jesse just wants to be able to fish and catch fish but the red tide is not working in his favor. We are having a bad couple weeks. It’s OK. In the end, despite us arguing more than usual, we have a lot of love between us. We make up, we hug and we are OK. We work on our faults and keep moving forward. I am thankful I have running to keep me sane. The thought of going back into the office is daunting, I am getting used to making my own schedule and leaving for an hour at a time to go down to the beach or out on a walk with Hendrix. But, it is happening… and wheels are turning and we want out of California soon.

Monday- Plan: Run 2 miles
Actual: no running
, did some stretching but mostly just home schooling and cleaning all day.

Tuesday- Plan: Run 3 miles
Actual: 4.2 miles!
Some fantastic mileage today, much needed!

Wednesday- Rest
Actual: 7.3 miles on the bike

Thursday- Plan: Run 3 miles
Actual: 4 miles done
! Felt good, had a lot on my mind and this run was needed to think it all through!

Friday- Plan: Run 2 miles
Actual: nada baby

Saturday- beach day

Sunday- Plan: Run 10 miles
Actual: 10 miles in the bag!
I didn’t even want to get out of bed, but I did. And I am glad I did. Because these were some of the easiest miles I have done. I was floating after mile 3, and it felt great to be moving. My first double digit run in MONTHS! I was exhausted after and even took a nap in the afternoon. While I did do run/walk intervals, my running pace was closer to 10 min miles. By mile 5 my hips were a bit sore, so I definitely need to do more hip strengthening workouts!

Next week we are supposed to go back to the office, part time. So much is in the air though- how are you guys dealing with all this lock down stuff? For us, it has gotten to the point that we are just over it here, over the crowds, the rude people, the righteousness of people. California is releasing a lot of people from jail- and it is SHOWING around here. Living in a beach city means there are more homelessness. Because it is nice weather, not too hot here- so they flock. Plus “lower income” compared to just a few miles away. Confrontations with gang members, meth heads and drunks are tiresome. We want the country.

Let me know where you guys are from? How is lock down there? Are you experiencing more crime/ less crime? Have things changed? I would love to talk to people from small towns, because our dream is to move to a small town and have land of our own. Have space. Live a simple life that is more fulfilling that a small apartment. Don’t get me wrong, I DO love it here. Our family is here. But we need space, we need our independence, we need more.

Quarantine Week 7

We were doing so well together, and it fell apart in Week 6… us as individuals we do not thrive on being cooped up in a house. We like to run free and not be told what to do and where we can’t go. Our lives were thrown upside down and they may never go fully back to normal.

Monday- Plan: get outside for a 1-2 miles
Actual: Abs in the morning. literally didn’t go outside till 6pm! 10 minute walk and then 6.1 miles biking while Hendrix was in the tubby

Tuesday- Plan: Run to the power plant and back. ~6 miles total. I was angry last night, and I wanted to run my heart out. I was determined to do so.
Actual: I woke up exhausted. I didn’t want to get up. But the alarm was blaring and there was no way I could just ignore it. My legs felt heavy, my brain all fogged up. I hopped on the bike for a mile and then went out the door. I was slow. Not on purpose… I just couldn’t run faster. I only made it 3.5 miles in total. But it’s better than nothing!

Wednesday- Plan: Yoga. Core. Walk (alone).
Actual: I tried to do a Chloe Ting workout, but I found that I really hate her background music. I just couldn’t move past it. Then I decided I would do some actual yoga/pilates and realized that I need to find someone I can follow who delivers the “good good” that isn’t annoying and I guess just makes sure there is a burn. So, alas.. the morning was somewhat wasted, but not completely… I decided to get dressed (again) and wear something nice… I haven’t been doing that lately- I have stayed in workout clothes, pajamas or just plain wearing too casual of clothes. In the afternoon we went to the beach and Hendrix dived head first into the water. He has really grown up! body boarding and jumping over waves.

Thursday- Plan: 2 miles
Actual: 4.89 miles run/walk intervals. I decided to keep going the distance I need to incorporate some walking, and there is no shame in that! So I did about 10 min run, 1.5 min walk. And it was glorious! Afternoon we played in the cold water and hot sun!

Friday- Plan: 2.5 miles. Core.
Actual: 7.5 miles on the bike!
I did post something on IG that I wanted to share with you as well, my biggest insecurity, something I still fight with today.. not every day, but some days. check out my IG post here.

Saturday- Plan: 4 miles
Actual: nada – we went out for Jesse’s birthday to a friends house for a bbq party. I had some wine, and any time I drink I always get in a funk the next few days. I tend to be quiet and reflective, not as outgoing or wanting to do much. That was basically how Saturday was spent. And also reaffirms how I shouldn’t be drinking, even if it just a little bit. The aftermath is never fun for anyone. I don’t get mean or angry, I just am reclusive and reserved and not social.

Sunday- Yoga.
Actual: 8.85 miles
run/walk intervals! My legs were a little crampy at times, I had a couple aches and pains, but they went away and I was able to enjoy a nice morning just running. I ran to the harbor (boat ramp area), which was mostly closed… then I ran to the other side of the harbor (where kayak launch pad is and past that). The sun was hidden by May Gray and it was a really nice run. I was out for longer than planned, but I was only able to stay out because I brought snacks! Thank goodness for snacks. Hope everyone had a great Mother’s Day!

Quarantine Week 6

It is hard to believe that we have completed 6 weeks of quarantine. Longer than any of us thought! Oceanside is starting to open back back, beached opened on Monday! but only to walk/exercise on. No staying in one place and you must keep your distance still.

Goals for the week:
1. LESS PHONE TIME! Last week my numbers were insanely high. (7 hours a day!! ack!) I feel like it was a lot of pinterest, facebook and instagram. Not so much tik-tok lol.
2. Run 12 miles
3. Focus on core
4. Continue to eat healthy
5. Get 7+ hours of sleep a night
6. Meditate!
7. STRETCH!
8. control my temper

Monday- Plan: Run 2 miles. Core. Arms.
Actual: 1.5 miles ran. No core. No arms.

Tuesday- Plan: Run 3 miles. Core. Back.
Actual: 5.81 miles run/walk combo

Wednesday- Plan: Strength- Core/ Legs/ Bike 10 miles
Actual:nada

Thursday- Plan: Run 2. Stretchhhhhhh. Core.
Actual: sick as a dog. Allergies, man.

Friday- Plan: Run 1-2. Core.
Actual: 6.5 miles bike.

Saturday- Plan: Run 4.
Actual: lizard hunting

Sunday-Plan: Rest.
Actual: 3 miles with Sola and 1.5 miles alone.

Didn’t quite make it to 12 miles this week, but it is what it is!

Who am I?

I am still learning a lot about myself, and I am sure you are too. Here are some things that I don’t speak about…

  1. I am a mother, daughter, partner
  2. I am 30 years old.
  3. I am 5 feet 1 1/2 inches tall.
  4. I love my height.
  5. I am super introverted.
  6. I tend to be a little shy at first, but am a huge talker once I get to know you.
  7. I love my “me time” and absolutely support #selfcare
    My “me time” usually includes a exercising, bubble baths, face mask, hair care, skin care, shopping or reading. (just one at a time, I don’t have all that time to do everything)
  8. I will physically get sick if I don’t have enough “me time.” >> true story! I haven’t prioritized a proper “me time” in a couple weeks and the other day my body revolted. I was left feeling sick and depressed. I couldn’t shake it. But when I finally mentioned to Jesse I just need to lay down with no interruptions, I was better after an hour.
  9. I love my friends and am there for them 1000%
  10. I have a son who just turned 5 and he has begged for a sibling for the last 2 years… we will see when that happens!
  11. I have always wanted a house with a yard and fenced front yard.
  12. I am a huge dork.
  13. I have a very active imagination and have definitely passed it on to my son.
  14. I love sharing my passions for things with others.
  15. When I talk I get super animated.
  16. I CAN’T hide my emotions at all, if I am upset, you will know it. If I don’t like you, you will definitely know it.
  17. I do not HATE anyone. I have no room in my heart or life for it- I may not like you, but I would never say hate.
  18. There’s only a small handful of people I just don’t like- and sometimes I can’t explain it. But I am in tune with my emotions and sometimes I just don’t jive with people.
  19. I really don’t like small talk- I can’t contribute to it at all.
  20. I loathe the “what’s up” question. I don’t know how to answer it.
  21. I love long phone calls with my friends. We could talk for hours on the phone.
  22. The ocean soothes me and calms me down in the worst of times.
  23. I am AFRAID of the open ocean, but have been out a few times on paddle boards and boats.
  24. I am extremely sensitive, and I will cry at almost anything if it hits just the right nerve.
  25. I love romantic comedies!
  26. I love reading.
  27. I love being in nature, and the sunshine and clean air grounds me.
  28. I am a survivor of domestic violence. (from previous relationship) and I do not tolerate the mistreatment of ANYONE. If you are going through this or questioning your relationship, I am always here to talk and help in any way I can.
  29. Over the last 3 years I have learned to really love myself and put myself first. I am a huge advocate for emotions and showing them. For talking through them and not being ashamed. I teach this to my son, I want him to feel it is OK to have feelings, to cry to be upset.. it is all about how we react to them that matters. (we DON’T hit friends!) 😉
  30. I am a runner. Running brings me my “me time” and more happiness than I ever thought possible.

Quarantine has put us in so many unfamiliar places, dealing with issues we normally could just push under the rug and not deal with. It has been a blessing and a curse. But ultimately, I am grateful to have this family time we have.

How have you been dealing with everything?

Quarantine Week 5

One thing I am doing to improve my mood is to watch what I eat more. When I feel confident, I am happier. I am not trying to lose weight, just find what I lost…. Sanity! I like being in control (and not mindlessly eating, which is what I have found myself doing while in quarantine, too many snacking when I am not even hungry), and one thing I thrive on is schedules. So, here I am putting myself on an eating schedule. I originally wanted to follow the 16:8 rule, which is what I did during my weight loss phase in 2017-2018. Lately, especially during quarantine, we aren’t held together by such a tight schedule, so we’ve been eating dinner late and snacking more than normal. All this extra has added some fluff to me that I am not entirely happy with. The scale moving up doesn’t mean you are any less beautiful, and by no means do I feel less beautiful, but I just feel a little “uncomfortable.” My clothes aren’t fitting the same and I want to catch this before it gets out of hand. Nothing strict, no crazy fad diets, just watching what I eat and when. After trying to follow this for a few days, I realized I can’t eat enough calories in that time period. I was grossly lacking calories and nutrients, but it was helping to curb the snacking! So, I may not follow a full IF type of plan, but something similar as long as I am getting the right calories.

Monday- Plan: Not eat till noon (ugh). Run 2 miles. Also try not to kill anyone
Actual: Did NOT eat till noon (intermittent fasting went good until about 10am then I was HANGRY), biked 3 miles, ran 1.5 miles. I successfully ate between the correct hours, 12pm-8pm… I wanted to finish dinner before 7pm, but that just didn’t happen… it’s OK though! We had drumsticks (baked at home, yummm) and brussel sprouts! I even had the will power to turn away a reeses peanut butter candy that Jesse brought home at 10pm! It was easier than I though.

Tuesday- Plan: NO PLAN! Just move your body how you want to
Actual: 3 mile warm up bike ride, some core work and strength, 5 miles on the bike, stretchhhhh and meditation before I started work. It was a quite morning, and slow.. exactly what I was craving. 2 mile run in the afternoon when the boys took a nap.

Jesse went out fishing at night, and Hendrix asked to take me on a date. So, after work was done and I was showered up and ready to go, we went on a nice lovely walk around the neighborhood. I had him go to the front door and knock as if he was picking me up. We walked out and held hands and talked. He wouldn’t let me be in control of the camera and took some lovely pictures. #quarantinedates

selfie time! his arms are short lol, sooo it was quite close up
He had some pics taken of him on a bridge

After our lovely walk, we went back home and watched a movie and went to bed. I had a FaceTime chat with Jesse which was so much fun! (7 years together and it still feels like we are dating and in the beginning of our relationship) Bad lighting, but we took a little picture of our chat/ date night. (I, of course, chose the picture where I look better than him 😉 )

Wednesday– I was feeling a little off, maybe from the alcohol.. maybe my body just needed to rest. But, I was not in the mood to work out, I slept in late and the day started off wonky. I got a delicious plate of carne asada nachos to split with Jesse. Maybe the extra grease hurt my stomach? But after eating I was sick to my stomach the rest of the day. I rested a lot!! But by the end of the night, I was starting to feel better and knew I was ready to go back to routine the next day.

Thursday- Plan: Run 2 miles. Core. Bootay work.
Actual: Bike 3 miles. Core work. Run 2 miles. Stretch. Bike 3 miles. Bootay work.

Run stats:
time: 19:47 minutes
avg HR: 163 (woo hoo! let’s get this lower!)
max HR: 182
TE: 2.8 (wooo!!!! under 3- THIS IS AWESOME!)
By late afternoon, I was in a very unhappy place, quarantine is wearing on all of us… and the household’s emotions took a dump. I lost it a couple times on Hendrix when I shouldn’t have, apologized profusely but was still feeling so upset with myself. I hopped on my bike and cycled for about 9 miles with hard effort… sweating out all the toxins I felt I had in me.
— even drinking a little bit I feel really drags me down the next few days… but also, MY PERIOD! I am PMS-ing like crazy! I normally don’t get this hot headed this often, but this cycle is just rearing its ugly head and I HATE IT. I calmed down some, Hendrix and I snuggled up and watched a movie. But man, that poor kid.

Sweat sesh at night to burn off some frustration

Friday- Plan: Run 2 miles
Actual: Cycle 2 miles. Run 2 miles. Stretch.
I was still a little moody in the morning, really didn’t want to get up and move, but that is just what depression** wants you to do! It wants you to wallow and not move and stay in misery. I am NOT going down without a fight. So I got myself out of bed and changed my clothes, sat on the bike and rode two miles to warm up and opened the door. I was greeted with sunny skies and went on a run. I wasn’t feeling it really, but I did it. I do feel better now.. but not 100%. Small changes in mood is a good thing! Keep honoring your feelings, because it is OK to feel a little off right now, or a lot off. Who cares? We have never been faced with this kind of pandemic- so we are all navigating something brand new.

**I want to make a disclaimer, I do suffer from depression, not right now.. but I was diagnosed with major depression at 15, and struggled (harrrd) until I was 28. I went on medication at 15 because I was trying to take my own life. I was over it. I didn’t know what to do with myself. I have been through therapy numerous times and the most recent was from 26-29 years old. Those 3 years are when I changed my life around. I am no longer chronically depressed, but I do go through bouts of it. I do not take medication anymore- I stopped when I found out I was pregnant and couldn’t/wouldn’t get back on it again. My chemicals started evening out and I learned how to deal with myself and problems besides turning to cutting or starving myself. When I mention “I don’t want to slip into depression” It is not used lightly. I fear for myself, because once I go down that hole, I fear I won’t be able to climb back out. I speak from a place where I know the darkest parts of my soul, and I know that I am capable of doing myself harm, and I DON’T WANT TO DO THAT.

Saturday- Plan: 4 miles
Actual: Easy 4 miles,
didn’t really want to get out of bed, but glad I did. I decided to try out running to Carlsbad, it was just as busy as Oceanside though. After my run and shower we did water balloons and bubbles.

On Friday I finally figured out why I was so moody this week, PMS! It normally doesn’t hit me this hard, but I think with life just being a bit bonkers, having no space to ourselves, it came rearing its ugly head more so and I felt like a teenager acting out my emotions. I am not proud to say I angry cried more than 2x this week. I screamed, I yelled, I threw a shoe across my room ( I didn’t but that would’ve been an epic teenage tantrum). I was embarrassed about how I conducted myself, but I can’t be so hard on me. This time is THE WEIRDEST time ever! No one knows how to act right now, so I am allowing it, but will try to take better care of my emotions next cycle.

I did hit my goal of 12 miles this past week. I did not stick to Intermittent fasting, in fact over the weekend I snacked more than normal, but it made me happy and felt good. And at that point, it was about being happy and satiated and not HANGRY.

Quarantine- Week 4

I left off last week with saying how it is important to honor your feelings, we are all in this weird place… being stuck at home and not allowed to go out. We have to revert back to days when we can’t go out and play or be social. It is definitely a different way of life! So, however you are handling it, just know you are doing your best! I am only doing what I know keeps me sane and the added benefit of getting healthy. Is my goal to be ripped at the end of this? No. But that would be cool! I am just trying to get through this in one piece. I am taking into consideration my mental state as well as my family. We are all very active, we strive on fresh air, adrenaline and achieving our goals. We support each other and make sure we are all thriving. And that is what I love about us. So, I had a busy week last week and didn’t really take much of a rest day, and I still feel great, but I know that if I keep not having a rest day I will burn both ends of the candle. So, this week I aim for at least ONE full rest day. (this is hard to do, but it is a must)

Monday- Plan: Day 2 of Chloe Ting’s Challenge (Hourglass) – 3 different videos 35 minutes, Run 2 miles
Actual: Day 2 of Chloe Ting’s Challenge, 7.1 miles on the bike, 2 miles running with 3x hill sprints

My splits! Sprinting hurts lol

Tuesday- Plan: REST DAY!
Actual: Deep stretch, my legs felt pretty heavy and tight when I woke up. as well as my hips! We did go on a short little hike with my mom and somehow that little walk really took a lot out of me. I ended up napping in the afternoon and it felt like an eternity. It was an ODD day

Wednesday- Plan: RUN and DAY 4 of Chloe Ting’s Hourglass Challenge
Actual: I really didn’t want to get up and work out today, I was tired… exhausted really… I felt lazy. But I allowed myself to lay for a couple minutes and then looked up… and the SUN WAS SHINING THROUGH THE BLINDS! That was my calling, I couldn’t let the morning get away from me. I jumped out of bed and decided there was no way I wasn’t going to enjoy the morning outside. So, I did 3 miles on the bike as a warm up and then a 5K running… where I kept an average HR of 165! WOOT WOOT! I want to lower it more, but I am very happy with that right now. It is PROGRESS! Finished off with 1 video of the Chloe Ting Oblique section and have 2 more videos I will complete in the afternoon.

Thursday- Plan: Chloe Ting Day 5, Run, Yoga?
Actual- Chloe Ting Day 5, 2 mi bike warm up, 4.25 mile run (FELT SO AWESOME!!!) I did not have a goal for the run other than to enjoy the sunshine and do at least 2 or 3 miles, and I did just that. I enjoyed my run, I walked around a little too (pausing the watch) and just basked in the sun. I ran down roads that had less people on them and away from the beach and just listened to music and thought about how much I love my body. That is a very new sentence for me… I think I started saying it late last year, my whole life I have hated my body, and I am finally loving it for what she does for me. She is AMAZING. I finished up the night with a really good and relaxing deep stretch to some meditation music. It was phenomenal!

Friday- Plan: do something and nothing at the same time
Actual: 5 miles on the bike and then 1 out of 3 of the workouts for Chloe Ting. I am having trouble doing these because they just keep repeating themselves. I do feel like my butt is looking GOOD! My abs… well I think abs are made in the kitchen, and my snacks are totally sabotaging.. but its ok. I took it real easy today and didn’t run. Saved my legs to be fresh for Saturday

Saturday- Plan: run a 10K in under 60 minutes! Challenge by Summer (from IG) and Run House Official who put on a friendly competition
Actual: I hit my goal, and made it by 20 seconds! It was really hard to get and stay motivated though. I woke up not feeling ready or wanting to run at all, which is tough to get over. I managed it eventually

Sunday- Plan: active rest day! Actual: 9.9 miles on the bike

Total Miles (ran): 15.5 miles!

Total Miles (biked): 30 miles!

How I Stay Consistent with Running

No one has asked, I am not going to pretend that you have 😉 but people have commented (on IG) that I am CONSISTENT with my runs. I do what I say I am going to do.

How I stay consistent:

  1. Weather plays a huge role in my consistency, I live in a beautiful area of San Diego, the weather is 90% AWESOME. And the 10% (which might be too high) is like the rain, wind or fires…
  2. I make a plan and I stick to it. (stubbornness is key)
  3. I make my plans known to my family. I include them in my routines so they know to expect me gone for a certain amount of time.
  4. I go to sleep at a reasonable time so I can wake up early and get my runs/workout in.
  5. I switch things up and try new routines! I will try barre, pilates, yoga, boxing… you name it, I will try it!
  6. I switch up the routes where I run. I try to change it up so that no one can track me if they were watching me daily but also it is better for me mentally to just get new scenery in.
  7. I love being in nature and out in the sun, this will lure me out of a dark cave ANY DAY!
  8. I don’t beat myself up if I don’t hit all my goals, well… sometimes I do, but then I cry about it to Jesse and he tells me it’s going to be okay. Crying helps sometimes.
  9. Recovery is KEY to staying consistent! You have to feel good and rested in order to keep working out.
  10. I set big and small goals for myself. Big goals to scare me but small goals to let me cross them off and keep moving forward.
  11. Almost always after a run I feel better. There have been some runs that have left me defeated or pissed off, but more often than not I am ELATED after runs. It is my anti-depressant.
  12. Instagram! Not to compare myself to others, but it helps me to see who else has finished their runs before me and gets me a little antsy to go running
  13. Races keep me consistent, if I have a race in the future I will continue to run, but with this whole COVID-19 races are cancelled or postponed… I am realizing that races aren’t the only thing keeping me going.. it is also my own personal will power (see 1-12)
  14. Log your workouts, I am a data geek… and I love seeing how my data changes as time goes on. I like to focus on my pace (obviously), heart rate, cadence, T.E. (training effect). I try to train smart not just hard!
  15. Don’t forget to rest so you don’t burn out! Burn out is the worst but if you are going through it, just honor your feelings and take a rest.

What do you do to stay consistent and get out there exercising?

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